mindful for a moment.

the little light on my air conditioner reflects on my window and stands out against the night sky. it looks like a star on a clear night. or is that something I'd like to believe? on most days, it's the closest i get to seeing a star. not because there aren't any visible from where i am, i can still see a few, if only i take a moment to. If. always an if.

i love the sky and the patterns that the clouds make. some days it looks like an album cover, some days it looks like a cat. other days it looks like nothing and is still breathtaking. and then there are days without any visible clouds, and it is peaceful. always such a sight. but on most days, it's too sunny outside or too hot, too humid. so, on most days, I just glance out of my window, take a picture and walk away.

i love watching birds perched on the tree outside my window. they're hopping from one branch to the other or drinking nectar from a flower whose name I haven't bothered to learn. but I'm too scared of getting close to birds. so, on most days, I hold up my phone against the sky, waiting for a bird to enter the frame; take a picture and walk away.

i love the moon. i wear it on my index finger, around my neck. my feed is full of pretty moon pictures. but on most days, something takes precedence over observing the moonlit sky. something, anything. so, on most days, i see a 'look at the moon' message, see the pictures of the pretty moon that someone else has sent me, and move on.

we’ll always be too caught up with 'life'. but what is life if not this? there's a strange peace that comes with sitting on the grass, not a bedsheet laid on the grass, but the grass itself. an almost overwhelming sense of relief that comes with looking at the moon, not vicariously through pictures, but actually gazing at it. is it enough to live life through someone else's experience of it? to wish that someday you'll be living it?

there's a lot to do and only a moment to do those things. and you're only here for a moment, but so is your world. the sunny sky, the uncut grass, the flying birds, the planes passing by, they will be gone with you. so, while you're here, don't be too far gone to actually be here.